I did something I never thought I was capable of...I quit my job.
I know I'm quite the drama lover. I always fantasized about flinging my resignation in their faces and watching their reactions go from shock to confusion to panic! I also built up this thrilling scenario where they all call in a meeting just for me and try and come up with strategy after after brilliant strategy to retain me - their precious, talented, irreplaceable Buyer. Gave me a kick and a strange sense of justice for all the stress of the years gone by.
But to be true, I never quite believed I'd ever go through with it. I didn't think I had it in me to walk away without the security of another job. But I did it. They called it impulsive, hasty, emotional. I call it acting upon my instincts. For the first time in my life, I did this solely based on my own gut feeling. Sure, I consulted with the mother and the boyfriend. But finally, put in my papers because I said to myself "Do this because it feels right. Act now so that you can tell the universe you're ready for a change."
I'm 29. There are only 10 months left for the big 3-Oh. I need to know I can be happy with my decisions all on my own. I need to take control of my own life. I need to prove to myself that I'm capable of being strong, sticking to my guns and start being the master of my destiny. More than anything else, now's the time to start looking at things clearly and making certain I can deal with my mistakes and learn from them instead of being afraid to make one wrong move.
This is the year. I either grow up now or stay hidden under blanket upon blanket of fear, doubt, guilt, shame, cowardice and worst of all, personality degrowth.
Here on, I power through life confidently and with conviction.
I know I'm quite the drama lover. I always fantasized about flinging my resignation in their faces and watching their reactions go from shock to confusion to panic! I also built up this thrilling scenario where they all call in a meeting just for me and try and come up with strategy after after brilliant strategy to retain me - their precious, talented, irreplaceable Buyer. Gave me a kick and a strange sense of justice for all the stress of the years gone by.
But to be true, I never quite believed I'd ever go through with it. I didn't think I had it in me to walk away without the security of another job. But I did it. They called it impulsive, hasty, emotional. I call it acting upon my instincts. For the first time in my life, I did this solely based on my own gut feeling. Sure, I consulted with the mother and the boyfriend. But finally, put in my papers because I said to myself "Do this because it feels right. Act now so that you can tell the universe you're ready for a change."
I'm 29. There are only 10 months left for the big 3-Oh. I need to know I can be happy with my decisions all on my own. I need to take control of my own life. I need to prove to myself that I'm capable of being strong, sticking to my guns and start being the master of my destiny. More than anything else, now's the time to start looking at things clearly and making certain I can deal with my mistakes and learn from them instead of being afraid to make one wrong move.
This is the year. I either grow up now or stay hidden under blanket upon blanket of fear, doubt, guilt, shame, cowardice and worst of all, personality degrowth.
Here on, I power through life confidently and with conviction.
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